Do Torpe Girls Finish Last?

I have a brother. We’re so sweet that his then-girlfriend’s friend thought that we’re a couple. Hahaha. Most of my cousins are guys. I hang out with them sometimes. So, I’ve been surrounded by Martians since childhood. Why, then, do I have trouble interacting with the male specie? I find it hard to warm up to them. I usually come across as a snob which I’m so not. I become too shy, stiff and self-conscious when I’m around guys. I don’t know how to act. I don’t know how to carry on a sensible and blooper-free conversation with them. Lucky me ‘coz I have guy friends who can put up with this, um, weird facet of my personality. This has always baffled me. I am torpe. I also get drawn to torpe guys. What’s the problem with me? I dunno.

I could have spoken
I could have shown
The feelings I’ve kept from you
The feelings I’ve known
But I had to hold back
‘Coz somehow I felt
You aren’t ready yet
And I think I’m just a friend
I patiently waited
I hoped and prayed
That He would give me a sign
Am I waiting in vain?
Now I’m confused
Should I stay or should I go?
I think I’ve found my The One
But we’ve only just begun…

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