Friday, December 31, 2004

My Astrology Profile

For some inapparent reason, I love reading astrology reports. I don't really believe in them...Hehe. This one's so true though. Still, I refuse to believe...

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others

You are a natural diplomat, reasonable, tolerant, fair, always willing to listen to varying viewpoints, and ready to see the other side of an issue. Even if you strongly disagree with someone, you will try to find points of similarity and agreement rather than emphasizing the differences. You often avoid taking an extreme or one-sided stance on anything. You have a strong desire for harmonious and pleasant relationships, and express a spirit of cooperation, compromise, friendship, and fairness. You very much want to be liked and because of your need for approval and acceptance, you are easily influenced by others' opinions, especially when young. You so much want to please that often you will suppress your own intense or unpleasant feelings in order not to offend others. Sometimes your politeness is interpreted as phoniness or wishy-washiness.

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

You are a person who thrives on challenge, and you often feel that you must battle your way through life, depending upon no one and nothing but your own strength, intelligence, and courage. You believe in being totally honest, true to oneself and one's own vision and convictions, even if that means standing alone. Honesty, integrity, personal honor, and authenticity are your gods, and you have no sympathy for weakness of character in others.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Happy New Year Everyone!!!

Hi! 2005 is just around the corner. May we all have a fun-filled year ahead of us...

First, take twelve, finely-aged months, see that they have been thoroughly peeled and cleaned of any lingering bitterness, resentment, envy or spite. Pick off any unpleasant memories that may remain and wash away all feelings of anger and hatred. Make sure that these years are completely cleansed of the past.
Divide these months into parts, 30-31 per month (one month may only have 28). A full batch will keep for a year, so do not attempt to prepare the entire batch at once. Prepare one day at a time, as follows:
Into each day mix these ingredients:
Knead all ingredients together with love, grace and kindness, then place on a well blessed sheet of honor.
Bake with joy and optimism!
For the icing, mix a cupful of good humor, a teaspoonful of good spirit, a dash of fun and a pinch of silliness. Spread generously over each new day, then top with a sprinkling of playfullness and garnish with the Resolution of your choice and a smile!
Serve with cheerfulness, enthusiasm and unselfishness.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

what a wonderful world

Hi folks! How was your Christmas? Mine was superb. Our family chef (my brother) whipped up yum-yum dishes. My brother's drinking buddies (2 of my exes included) came over. Life is weird. It does get weirder each year. Haha! I got to spend time again with my cousins. We goofed around til 3 a.m. I'd like to share this song with you. It basically reflects how I feel about my life. Optimism is the key. Hakuna matata!


I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

Who Am I?

I'm the first ray of light that appears at the crack of dawn
I'm the wind that buzzes your cheek in the cold December night
I'm the drizzle that teases you amidst clear blue skies
I'm the prism that you see during roller-coaster rides
I'm the subtle hint of bitterness that persists hours after a coffee break

You have seen me
Clothed in different seasons
You have felt my presence
In its entirety
I'm the happiness that you yearn for
I'm the sorrow that you dread
I'm the nostalgia that impregnates your thoughts during idle hours
I am the memory that will haunt you beyond time and space

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

the one that got away

This piece got sent to me a couple of times already...A nicely-written piece that gives me hope. Someone out there might just be my THE ONE.

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with... and the one that got away.Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with whom everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose. I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing.It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.How often have you gone through it without even realizing it?When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal-breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flash-point of that fact.Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not bethe brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single, but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter.All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?"You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person willprobably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late?Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere.You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away." You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference.If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone,"Hey you, you're the one that ALMOST got away."

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

the only people for me are the mad ones

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time , the ones who never yawn or say commonplace things but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow Roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars...and in the middle you see the centerlight pop and everybody goes AWWWW!!!" --- Jack Kerouac

Little Rascal Unmasked

I'm not saintly but I'm really nice. I'm not untamed but i can defy convention for the sake of growth. I welcome both sunny and rainy days. Shit happens but I don't let it tarnish my rainbow-colored life. I breathe optimism. I love non-stop conversations, wake-up/late-night calls, fun-filled adventures, mapped-out plans that can make room for spontaneity/unpredictability and time-worthy company. I can laugh real hard over the corniest of jokes. I can cry until my heart aches over happy/sad endings. I tend to over-analyze things. Hehe.I can live through the occasional incredulity that life has to offer. I'm a paradox that's yet to be reconciled. I'm in the process of figuring out ME.
*** If you are not living on the edge, then you are occupying too much space.Risk it. ***