Thursday, December 25, 2008

I discovered that some of my links here are either inactive or have been redirected to obscene websites. I've deleted them. Happy holidays everyone!
2008 was one hell of a rollercoaster ride. The ride was definitely bumpy. Everything felt new. It tested my faith. To make matters worse, Shai and the Kuchen Meister were thousands of miles away. Wish and pray that they're here. Despite everything, I still believe in God's sublime plan. He has the power to make things happen. He knows what's best for me. The bruises made me stronger and wiser. This is my first Christmas with my baby. She's everything to me. I posted this song in my previous blog ...
NOT WHILE I'M AROUND
Barbra Streisand
Nothing's gonna harm you
Not while I'm around
Nothing's gonna harm you
No sir, not while I'm around
Demons are prowling everywhere nowadays
I'll send them howling,
I don't care, I've got ways
No one's gonna hurt you
No one's gonna dare,
Others can desert you
Not to worry, whistle
I'll be there
Demons'll charm you with a smile for awhile
But in time
Nothing can harm you,
not while I'm around.
Being close and being clever
Aint like being true,
I dont need to,
I would never
Hide a thing from you
Like some
No one's gonna hurt you
No one's gonna dare
Others can desert you
Not a worry, whistle
I'll be there
Demons'll charm you with a smile for awhile
But in time
Nothing's gonna harm you
Not while I'm around
Not while I'm around

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Yesterday was a typical Saturday. Was at the clinic along D. Tuazon from 8 till 5. No patient showed up. Haha. Finished a third of PS I Love You. The story's getting really good. Struggled against dozing off. Listened to On the Side of Me over and over again. Gazed out the window and watched the world go by. Received my pay at the end of the day. Mama told me I should be ashamed for getting paid without seeing a single patient. Told her it wasn't my fault if people get too lazy to show up at the clinic during the holidays. I completely understood. Would have done the same thing. Haha. Finally caught Twilight. I know there's a hype going around but I must admit that I was a bit disappointed. Should have waited for the DVD copy instead.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Christmas is definitely my favorite time of the year. No, not Valentine's day (although I'm a self-confessed romantic). And no, DEFINITELY NOT New Year's Eve ('cause I'm auditory defensive). I feel like a kid during Christmas. Of course I no longer believe in Santa (although I envy the little ones who still believe in him) but I'm one of the few adults who get totally excited about receiving gifts during this season. I crave for my family's traditional noche buena fare --- the quezo de bola, fruitcake, Mama's macaroni salad, halayang ube, Mama's Italian ribbon-shaped spaghetti and Aling Beth's sarsa (sarsa pa lang, ulam na!). I used to complete 9 days of Misa de Gallo/Simbang Gabi in order to make a wish. Believe me, my wishes came true. Too bad I failed to attend a single mass this month. December has always been a memorable month for me. Enough said. Meri Kurisumasu!

On the Side of Me

Currently loving this song ... To all the people who've been with me and continue to stay with me through the rough times, domo arigato gozaimasu ...

ON THE SIDE OF ME
Corinne May

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

Sunday, December 14, 2008

When you're in your teens, you tend to be a bit selfish. You choose to do things that make you happy. Your first priority is yourself. You set aside a fraction of your baon for that fab outfit you can wear to the party where your crush might show up. It takes an hour and a half to get dressed. When your mom asks for a massage and you're feeling tired, you rant. You expect to receive gifts from your loved ones on your birthday. You refuse to run errands when exams are near. You break up with your boyfriend because you believe that there's always someone better around the corner. You whine about the number of years you have to spend in college just to get a degree. You're excited about the idea of establishing a career in the future that will provide you with more money for clothes and "extra-curricular activities." You're the master of your universe. Your ego is important.
In your 20s, however, you start to realize that you're not the only person that matters in your universe. Your mom gets sick and you suddenly feel a sense of panic. You don't want to lose her too soon. You love her. You offer her a daily TLC massage. You accompany her on her trips to the doctor. You're forced to squeeze in household errands a day before your slide presentation because someone's got to do them. Gifts on special occasions are things of the past. A hug or a kiss will do. When you get your first paycheck, you eagerly hand it over to your folks. You try to work things out with your partner because you have committed yourself to him. Happiness no longer rules your universe. You're responsible for your own actions. No one else can speak for you. No one else can save your a*s. Things get more complicated when your sense of responsibility is put to the test. Should you choose to be happy and get others hurt? Or choose to sacrifice your own happiness in order to make others happy? Growing old sometimes sucks.